I’m going to get real here for a moment…
Have you ever been in a relationship that you thought was going great and next thing you know, the love of your life tells you that it’s over?
Felt like an 18-wheeler going 100mph slammed right into you, didn’t it?
I’m not going to sugarcoat it. It sucks.
I had a track record of shitty relationship after shitty relationship (break up after break up.) Excuse the potty mouth, but they were really that toxic…I just didn’t see it at the time.
I would fall head over heels in love, think all was good and that I was finally going to be the one saying “Yes! I will marry you!”
Another bridesmaids dress later…
You get my point.
It wasn’t until my last relationship 2 years ago, probably the most exhausting and trying of them all, that things changed.
Let’s take a quick trip back…
I’ll give you the Cliff Notes version… we were together for 2 years, moved in together the 2nd year after a very serious conversation about where the relationship was heading, then he breaks up with me a few months later, moves out, I fall into a very dark place (where I usually went after a breakup), 2 weeks later my sister gets engaged (happy for her…knife to the heart for me), 2 months later he comes back saying he’s sorry and wants to get back together, 2 minutes later, I say “yes”…
and then, on our 3 year anniversary he breaks up with me again…18-wheeler to the face.
Except this time, something changed…for the first time in my life, I didn’t go into a dark place after my heart was broken.
I felt taller and stronger than I ever had. I felt held up when parts of me were trying to fall back down. Continue reading