I want you to think about something you would do right now if money, time or failure weren’t a factor.
Did you think of it?
Dreams, desires, goals. Money, love, health.
When we give ourselves the permission to imagine our life the way it could be if we had it all. It can be unbelievably exciting, tantalizing and even a bit overwhelming.
How many times have you…
- Thought about going after your dream job, but it wouldn’t have paid as much money as you’re making now?
- Thought about moving to a new city, but all of the uncertainty – work, friends, rent, finding a new home – kept you right where you are?
- Been in a relationship that you knew deep within your soul wasn’t good for you, but you stayed anyways…”I’ll give it another month and then if it’s still this bad, I’ll leave.”
Believe it or not, I’ve experienced every single one of these and I get how difficult it can feel when your desires are pulling you one way, but the unknown is pushing back.
Just recently I went to Austin for two weeks. I’ve had this longing to move there for about a year now (even though I’ve wanted to move out of New York City for many years.) However, just like the pattern in my life, I was scared of all the uncertainty that would come with picking up and moving to a new city and leaving behind everything I knew…work, friends, family, my apartment.
About two and a half years ago, I found myself broken hearted yet again. My boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me for the second time on our 3-year anniversary. Two months later, just like the first time, he came back and asked me to give it another try. History would predict that I would have, because I knew very well many times throughout our relationship that I should have ended it and didn’t.
However, this time something in me shifted. I was fully ready to let go of what I knew, own my power, honor myself, my self-worth and step into the unknown. I said it was over and with that also ended years of me not taking responsibility for and sacrificing my happiness.
At the beginning of this year, I had plans to leave my job in advertising that I had been in for 9 years. I had my business plan created. Things were most definitely going to happen this year. Keep in mind, that I had been building my business and working a full time job for 3 years prior. Everyday I would walk into that office with a pit in my stomach, feeling like my energy was drained, knowing that I wasn’t supposed to be there…but I “needed” my paycheck and health insurance, so “once I had the business where I wanted it, I would leave.” Well, the Universe had a better plan, because in February, I got laid off. Continue reading